Breaking into bits and pieces

Hello!

I had a thing called "a hell of a week".
I stayed in school till 8 doing group work on monday, worked till 8 for thursday and friday, went to some home parties.
But yesterday was the most interesting day.
I went out for dinner with 4 of my girlfriends. We were having fun talking about stuff and rumors and all that girl stuff. But at one conversation, the toppic got deeper.
Then one of the girls just burst into tears.
She kept saying everyone is so special but she doesn't know what to do because all she can do is draw realistically. In other words, Entrance Exam style dessins.

She told us that she felt envious of me and another girl for getting into uni a different way (I went in by giving a presentation and doing face-to-face interviews).
Poor girl. She didn't even know she was this desparate to find what she is good at.
I guess getting into a good uni is a big step. But beyond that you are in your own so what's more sad and miserable not having support and all alone struggling to find YOU??

But the biggest thing is that I didn't know she was that struggling!
I thought she was a bubbly very earnest kind of girl. But she wasn't. And it turned out that she was a very fragile very sencitive girl.
So I made her stay over night at my place so to make sure she won't go all crazy regretting nothing. She left this morning.

For me, I'm actually doing very fine at university.
More than I expected.
Like I don't really get worried or get all down there and want to die or something like that. Maybe its because I'm so busy.hahaha

But I also try to detox all the information from my brain by writing my diary like crazy and doing yoga, running and drawing stuff at home on my wall without any thinking. I feel I'm very lucky because I have ways to relieve myself from stress and over-load infromation rather than staying at home and thinking in my brain non stop till I think I'm not worth living.

I also flashed back when I was little and remembered how it was hard to tell people about me. It must be the two-language syndrome or whatever.
It was hard for sure. Especially for a little kid.
This is very 懐かしい。 But because I suffered for quite a long time and gave people a lot of trouble, I have me and I'm very happy with myself. People may say this is confidece, but I think its something beyond that. What is it?haha Maybe its the fact that I have myself to rely on and I'm ok. Does this have to do something with having two identities in two languages? Am i thinking too deep?? Half-Japanese people tend to think too deep you know?

Ah by the way, I made a ad for this and I'm pround of it and I'm going to stick it around school and I'm attending it! :)

http://www.hafujapanese.org/index.html

Prestantaion

God there Im now attending a class for Hishyu and I have a presentation and the quality is quite not good or in other words bad.

I think I'm seriously getting an headache.

I used 石膏today.
Don't know how to say that in english...:P

Anyways, I hope peoples presentations will inprove in a year or I'll keep getting headaches.

roppongi and chaos

Hello!
Guess what!? I have finally gotten out from the little town that I used to live and actually went to the middle of tokyo where all the people are and where Gwen Stefani fantacizes. Yes! I went to shinjyuku, Shibuya, Roppongi and saw Tokyo tower and also saw only saw Harajyuku from a distance.

It was great. the chaos. I actually liked Shibuya.
It is indeed, as people say, over packed and busy you might get sick.
But young people who gets easily high with brain-made adrelanin can take it.

The Shibuya station was packed. Look in your right, a girl is getting sick while on your left, there is a massive photoshoot for a girls magazine.

So, what did I do?

I went to see the Cassina Exhibition and to a contemporary arts exhibition. I went to see two.
Cassina was great. All the furniture spoke for itsself. No explanation needed. Just pure time-less stuff from the 50-70s. You need a week to study and see everything. Just pure timeless things. I was amazed how human can create those nice things in their intangible brain.

But the other contemporary one was just strange.
I mean, you really don't get anything until you get your hands on one of those walky-talky-type machine that explains the works.
So, me without one of those, just tried to feel the art. But failed.
You can't get inspired by just listening to a sound that sounds like a PSP or refridgerator getting electricuted.


And by the end of the day, I was so excited that I couldn't go to sleep for a long time. Maybe the Krispy cream doughnuts's over grazed grazed doughnuts did their trick to make me excited.
But literally, Tokyo maybe one of the places you need to go once in your life while you are still young.



I will list some foods I ate at the city.

FO



Jean paul Hevin's chocolate.
One little piece of chocolate and a 3cm macaron　costs ¥700($7)




All time fashionista's favorite, Dean and Deluca


TOKYO TOWER!woop


Roppongi mid town. A grad school Korean lady told me that
it took 15years to create the building.
15years of THINKING. THINKING.
How many people do that?
But they should be happy since the building is absolutely wonderful.




Enough of playing.
I need to concentrate on my works and studies.
Having fun as usual at school though. It just gets more interesting
and interesting.

What I didn't realize is that I'm doing 3times more work than anyother student in my department.
wooo

miki xoxo

Feeling Good today

Yesterday, I really didn't have a good day somehow.

Probably because during the critique that I had yesterday, mine was not commented by the old teachers. Not that I really minded but maybe it was subconscious!! haha

by the way, this is my paintings...


It was like this...


then went likethis


yea it is a tree root..I don't know what you thought it was but its a tree root. Don't comment much on it because I do wish I had more time to paint more.

I'll show you other peoples paintings. Just for the whatever of it.











By the way, this is the class I was in.Everyone is arty and strange and everyone is so facinating.


Ok. So from tomorrow, sculpture starts.
People have been saying that the classes are quite hard.
But I guess I just have to see how it goes.

I bought a bunch of books today too from a nice second-hand bookshop near the river I always pass with my red bike.

Now better go.

Hope you all enjoy my photos.

Love lots M

xoxo

Morning classes

Hello.

I'm writing this from my university and I have classes.

Drawing-the-tree-root class. But I'm stuck so I went for a walk around the school. It's also getting cloudy and windy.

The weather is not stable here. It's even going to rain tonight.

Anyways, a couple of people are starting to slack off.

That made me think.

Why are they in uni!?!?!????!?!?

Don't they have ambitious dreams and stuff??

I know drawing for 3hours everyday is quite tiring and gets on to your nerves but seriously. Not coming to school equals you are making your parents paying money for nothing for the past 2years(for cram school) and now onwards.

peeeewf.

Ok, now its 2:38 and I have finished for today.
My painting is getting a lot of positive comments from the teachers.
woow. I didn't expect that. I was just doing what I really wanted to do. Basically, I was just drawing like a kid. That is kind of the best thing you can do in art. When you draw like a kid, all the old guys like it. When you get sohpisticated, they hate it. Well, I'm having fun with myself so I guess I don't really care about them and I do not take their comments seriously.

Ah, the reason why I finished school so early?
The min-zoku-gaku(how do you say this in english? floklore?) was off.
It was on for like ten minutes, then the teacher started to speak italian in the speed of sound and went out of the class bearly saying "the class is off". So, we 100of students were puzzled and didn't know what to do. I went to the library shortly after that and as I came back and passes the class for folklore studeis, some people were still there. haha

Funny things happen everyday here.

I guess this means extra me time.
Haven't had that for a long time.

ME TIME!:D

Mik xoxo

TGIF!!!

Hello

This is miki. It's friday and I'm watching America's Next Top Model at school.

God americans are good at making everything look so dramatic-titanic.

anyways, I'm going to the explanation of Sokka and after that having a Okonomi-yaki dinner party.

Woooo exciting.

Not much news but I didn't sleep in Hyogen-ron. The teacher was talking about Roman cities. Now I'm getting the hang of university. I still don't really know what they are going to do since I still only paint for three hours in the morning whether than just studying and group working.

anyways, its raining still and its probably not going to clear up...

how sad.

miki